over the hill

ok, ok… so i may not really be over the hill in literal terms. however, it does depend on how you view things. today was my last day being 25 as in three hours i will be turning over to 26 (i was supposedly born around 2am). the truth is, being 26 means that you have gone beyond the halfway point to 50. hell, that was the first thing that came to mind when i turned 25 a year ago… how i was halfway to 50! ugh, that’s scary! i don’t feel like i’ve accomplished nearly as much as i would have like to by now, though i feel that my prime is still on the horizon and things are beginning to quickly evolve. perhaps i am blindly heading in the right direction although it has felt like i have been side-tracked this entire time. maybe it was supposed to work out that way? well, i’m not a believer in fate nor that things necessarily happen for a pre-determined reason. so it’s more likely the fact that i knew what i was doing and know what i am doing all along. wait… that was way too optimistic for me. i definitely don’t know what i’m doing most of the time…