i have accepted the fact that i won’t find a job by the end of the year (still have not been applying all that much b/c my disgust at my profession has grown larger during the course of this year). right now i am not going to stress about it as there’s plenty of work that will keep me occupied for a while. however, as things remain in flux i have been really missing nyc recently, which of course has put me in a deeply introverted mood of self-reflection and thinking. now recall i went through this last week and thought i was over it, but it returned today. i’m sure the upcoming holidays play a part in it, being fully aware of the disconnect i have with family due to our lack of closeness with one another overall. whatever it is, i hope that this slump passes soon.
that leads me to the next thing i’ve been thinking about… what i’m doing for xmas this year. last year i went to my sister’s place when they were living in delaware which was great, but they’re in seattle this year. i would definitely like to go up there and visit, perhaps go venturing northward into vancouver, canada. but i also wasn’t with my family in texas last year either. then there’s another appealing option of just going somewhere on my own where i have not been before… denver, chicago, toronto, etc. maybe alaska? this would be a great opportunity for me to just get away on my own, clear my head and really figure out what my next move will be upon my return next year. not sure what to do yet…but better make plans soon before flights are all booked and ticket prices continue to increase!