introverted and detached

the mood today was one of being antisocial, introverted, frustrated, angered, disconnected, disengaged, detached, secluded, isolated, stressed, disappointed, uncommunicative, withdrawn, disinterested, discouraged and thwarted. just when i think i’m heading in the right path, i step back and examine the view. this time it hit me… and i am no longer as sure about things as i once was. honestly, what the hell am i thinking? why am i so hard on myself all the time? nothing is ever good enough and the satisfaction is never really there. what am i striving for with all this… really? is there some alternate higher level of truth in life that i am seeking? why absolute perfection? i remain lost again.